Bunny,
nobody else's relapse experience is gonna keep you sober. you have your own to look back on, as you've just done.
not winning at life and sobriety?
you're here, alive, struggling, sober.
that's what winning looks like.
i needed to share with face-to-face people, and still do. i didn't start out in AA but got there after a while, and in both my secular and now my AA meetings there is no two-tier system where some get to share and others don't.
i hope you'll consider adding some other meeting(s) where you get to speak and share.