I understand the desire for the buzz. We all do.
My last drinking binge was horrid. I remember drinking shot after shot. The shots were big. I was so drunk. I couldn't see straight. It was a nightmare mare. I got in a giant fight w my wife. I could have done something terrible.
Who needs that....Booze can ruin us. Every aspect of us.
Remember, it is a short lived thing, maybe an hour of drunken euphoria.
Then hours and days of guilt, depression, anxiety, crave etc. Then you have to fight to recover again. Right now it is only mental. If you drink, it becomes physical and mental.
Heck no. Don't need it.
I'm at 11 months on the 9th.
My anxiety is faded pretty well. It is not gone, but it may never be. This may be normal.
Be proud you are clean. Don't poison your body.