I don't know you bunny, i am new to SR on day 5 of my recovery. Don't come back here Bunny, don't put yourself back into where I am now, crawling through each day, dealing with the aftermath and shame, desperate desperate to not pick up a drink. 5 days on 10 months seems like an eternity.... Please don't come back here.
Stay safe and embrace the life you deserve and have worked so hard to achieve.
Blessings
Elle