Originally Posted by Delizadee

Stop everything you're doing right now.
Get off here for a bit and call your sponsor.
You know what you do right now?
Treat this like you've already relapsed.
And throw yourself wholeheartedly back into sobriety.
Recommit.
Attend multiple meetings if you can.
Reach out often wherever you can.
Don't isolate and keep yourself busy.
Now your head is roaring at you. Don't let it get quiet. Fight it until it subsides. Relapses happen long before we pick up the drink.

Remember it's a choice.

Get off the ladder. If you climb any higher it gets harder to reach out.

You're being tested. Tell your AV very funny it. But it can f off now.