Pre-Lapse
10 months sober today.
I feel like I am spiraling out of control. I am circling the drain. My life is at risk and I am very scared.
I need to hear some of your horror stories about how you failed at moderation. My head is driving me crazy trying to tell me that alcoholism is not a disease (no medical proof that is anything other than a set of mal-adaptive behaviors) and that moderation is possible.
Shutupheadshutupheadshutupheadshutuphead.
Please....relapse horror stories. Lay them on me!!!