I'm sorry to hear of your relapse, Mia. When you joined the March class and then disappeared, I thought about you. That's often a sign that things aren't going well.
Consider rejoining the March class, we'd love to have you back, or the April class if you prefer, and then stay close. Post every day and more when you need to.
Your airport panic sounds familiar. I remember staring at a plate of airport food I couldn't eat, nearly unable to sign my name for it because of the shakes. Never again, huh? You can do this, Mia.