I'm sorry you're under so much stress right now. But that's right now the future lye's ahead and we can face it when it comes.
Things have a way of working out if we stay sober.
What good is a drink going to do anyway? Make you numb? Well, what about tomorrow? Another drink or solve these situations sober?
Believe me, there's nothing drinking is going to make better.
Do something you enjoy. Take a nice bath. Take on one thing at a time.
Go to an AA meeting and express what you feel.
Things will work themselves out. Trust me.