Thoughts of self harm came on in for a few moments. I hate feeling like this. I havent self harmed but the thought and urge was there, I feel recovery to be two steps forward and four steps back at the moment.
What I need to recognise is that getting sober takes a hell of a lot of courage. It IS hard to confront your past and your feelings with no means of escape. Afterall isnt this why we all drank in the first place? It IS hard.
Im ok. Im not going to self harm and I definately am not going to drink. Just wish I was free from all this ..... poop. Its a horrible horrible process staring this in the face. I guess Im not used to it.
I have faith that it will get better. Swings and rounabouts I guess.
Im ok. Feel better for posting on here x Thank you x