So today is day 23 and I've had a mixed bag of a day, my constant headaches seems to be settling down a bit which is great. The kids are off school and my wife is pre menstrual which means lots of shouting and arguing by all 3. Moods been all over the place today, one minute feeling confident and then feeling like my heads going to explode. I'm also starting to resent having to sort everyone else out- met a friend at the pub ( which I'm also starting to loathe), and had to transfer 10k of his debt to a 0% credit card. The annoying part is he is more than able to deal with this himself just can't be bothered because the drink is more important. A lot of it, in fact all of it is down to me not having written a structure for myself and I need to get on and do so.
The other thing I've now realised is I'm not going to punish my self by drinking because I want to show my wife I am angry with her. This is my recovery and if she doesn't want to be part of it then I will set myself free and leave her stuck with her issues.
Anyway time for bed- stay strong everyone
