That's it, I give in!
So I was originally going to try to hang on and go to rehab 2-3 weeks from now. But I can't hold on that long. I'm throwing in the towel. That means not completing my auxiliary training, which I've spent the past 3 months doing.
But I just can't do it. I can't stay sober right now. I need up and out of this life for a bit.
I'm just waiting to hear back from work and then I'm calling the treatment centre to set up a date.