Hi Seasaw! Funny, I was just thinking of you today and popped on the forum to see what was going on. Hope you're feeling better <hugs>
I had just realized that I hadn't talked to/heard from/heard about my mother for months now. Personally, I think as ACoA we have a built in defense mechanism that allows us to disconnect from people easily, but sometimes I think, wow, I should care more, when I realize how easy it is. I have to work on staying connected to the people I care about instead of retreating into myself. That helps, but yes it is way too easy to retreat. Keep fighting the good fight, glad to hear from you.