I'm kinda lost
I was doing so good and in one second one weak moment I lost it at I relapsed ... It wasn't even my drug of choice ... I feel so disappointed and lonely I can't tell anyone around me because they are all so proud of what I've overcome .I have so much to lose why would I make such a dumb decision? I know I should go to a NA meeting or call a NA hotline . I have the number in my phone to call and I have the addresses of all the meetings around me so why can't I make myself go I'm just so ashamed.. Sorry this post is so scattered and vague I've just never done this before I don't know if this is how you start to talk to people I tend to shut down and push everyone out when I start to use as most people do.. I just am so disappointed !