I've rarely posted on this forum but it might be fitting to use this thread to say thank you to all who have indeed posted here through the years - as this site and especially this forum has been tremendously helpful for me.
5 years sober now. I've got a good job and am 3 courses shy of finishing a degree in Computer Science. I have gotten joint custody and am raising my son. I'm in great shape, exercise a lot, eat healthy and sleep well. I haven't got much of a social life but it does not bother me much. I'm proud of myself. And I feel like I'm finally in control of my own mind. It's not a chaotic madhouse any more. I can now step back and "watch" my own thoughts and not take them too seriously. I can relax and enjoy the moment.
I've started to appreciate this recovery journey as a precious gift. I'm in a place now where I'm so comfortable and so at ease. I doubt that I would ever have gotten there if not for all the bad stuff that started this journey.