Originally Posted by
seasaw 
... i'm three days in bed now, just distracting myself with tv and other escapist behaviors. ...
Yikes, that sounds awful. Sorry to hear that
Originally Posted by
seasaw ...but i stopped a couple months ago. and now, it's like... i'm crying a lot less, i'm less emotional... but what's left is the indifference, this dangerous ambivalence. ...
hmmm... sounds to me like you swung way over to super-recovery and now you are swinging to the opposite extreme. I do that too, swing from one extreme to another. The whole concept of "balance" is something I still work on.
Originally Posted by
seasaw ... a reasonable person would suggest...
That would be reasonable for a person with a normal childhood. We ACoA's are _special_
Originally Posted by
seasaw ... my therapist would say it's under-medicated major depressive disorder talking. but i'm pretty medicated....
Would you say "under" medicated? Or perhaps just not _balanced_ medicated? And does your brain function well enough when not correctly medicated to be able to self-diagnose?
Originally Posted by
seasaw ... i feel like i need to actually alter on a basic personality level ...
I don't know about that. ACoA issues are _not_ basic personality issues, they're just obsolete survival skills.
Now if it turns out that in real life you are some kind of purple alien from outer space with green tentacles and yellow claws well then ... maybe.... you do have something deep going on <joke>
Originally Posted by
seasaw ... i just needed to say it to a group who would accept and understand me. ...
Yeah we get it. Go ahead and vent all you want, that is what we are here for.
Mike
