My heart goes out to you on this one, FS. Talk about a unique situation! There have been articles popping up in Facebook newsfeed lately, based on a February New York Times article that said one in three lawyers are problem drinkers. After practicing law for eleven years, I do not doubt this one little bit. It can be utterly exhausting to work in that kind of environment. I can't even imagine what it must be like to walk the very fine line you are trying to walk.