I'm afraid to think too far ahead. Still difficult to picture my life sober for more than today. I like reading the posts of others who have more time than me as inspiration (day 32 here) that there is a happy life without drinking. My life is amazing so I have no complaints (great job, health, husband, friends), which is extra sad that I choose (chose) to drink it away instead of facing my insecurities and believing I deserve everything I have.