Today is day 38.
And I'm exhausted! Lol. It's been quite a week but despite that and stress I didn't have any cravings to drink. In fact it occurred to me that if I still were drinking I likely would have muddled through but I would have gotten far less out of the training I was attending.
Bottom for me with regard to drinking was the realization that I was half-a$$ing my way through life. I was sliding down a slippery slope to harming my career, my marriage, my kids ... I'd lost my confidence in myself in so many aspects of my life and was just fooling myself that it was going well. And every single day had become day one for months.
Life feels so much better now. I still have a long road of fight ahead of me to tackle a number of firsts and such... But now I know that I can do this... And I will do this.
And today I will not drink.