Cococo, the first time I went to a meeting, I just sat in the back. At one of them, I was greeted by a member, but some others I wasn't. I just sat in the back and listened. I attended a couple times before I participated and that's ok. At the meeting I attend now, many people leave after the speaker is done. If you get pressured to stay and feel uncomfortable, try another meeting. Hope you find one you like :-)