((((Y2KG))))
Welcome to SR....
4 months is not a very long time to have been involved with someone. I take it most of the time she has been with you she has been using?
You know yourself that when we have been using we are not really all that much in touch with our feelings....Time will tell ya know.
Maybe you could bennifit from checking out naranon or alanon meetings.
I don't know what she is coming off of or how long she has been using but, unless she has been using for only a short while you may not even really know the real her and it might take sometime for her to feel comfortable revealing the real her to you...
Take it easy on yourself.