Today is day 37.
Last evening it occurred to me that many of my habits and instincts that involved wanting to grab alcohol have been distinctly altered now. It doesn't even cross my mind to have a drink when I get home from work.m when I started this journey I would start thinking about when I could have a drink three hours before I got home. It feels awesome to have that monkey off my back and no longer be at the mercy of those urges. They used to dictate how I would plan and schedule my days, especially the weekends and it so liberating to not have that vice dictating my every movement anymore.
This doesn't mean I'm com placement. I know that I must remain vigilant and cognizant of my actions. I fear that one day I will absentminded take a drink without realizing it, slip back into that habit. So I shall continue my daily mantras and commitment and to develop plans when we have atypical plans so as not to get caught off guard.
And today I will not drink.