Hi and welcome IQuitWishIDidnt
I'm sorry life is a little rough right now...and was rough for me too, and I also blamed not drinking for it being rough.
A few years on tho and I realised things were rough because of my drinking, not because I'd stopped.
I was very much addicted to alcohol. Not having it around made me miserable for a little while, but I was miserable drinking too.
My concentration was shot, I wasn't sleeping well and I had no energy...but those were all signs of how much I'd relied on alcohol. I was hooked.
Drinking again might make us feel ok for a little while but I know I'd soon be back at the place when I knew I needed to quit again.
I persevered with not drinking and I'm glad I did.
I really love my life and who I am now. I can look at myself in the mirror and not feel ashamed.
I can truly be there for those who love me.
It's a good life, honestly
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