Originally Posted by thomas11

Today was day one of my 4th training cycle. Just finished and I'm cooling down, drenched with sweat. The pieces of the puzzle of my life are falling in place. Physically I feel invigorated as opposed to sick, and I'm able to push it pretty hard considering my condition. For me personally, my quality of life doubles when I am in an active exercise program.

I have turned to food and cooking to fill space (I like to eat). My wife loves fish, so Friday we had a fish fry, turned out excellent. Saturday my Dad wanted me to come over and make some of those pheasants I shot last fall. It was really good, but not great. Not sure why. Thursday is St. Patrick's day and its always corned beef and cabbage.

Not drinking (for me) is established in my house, my wife has never been happier. I haven't told anyone. I went to my parents and as always they offered a drink, but I told em no, that I'm trying to get in shape, which is true. Picked up my medication this morning and we have gone down another 10MG per day. We'll see if I suffer any withdrawal effects.

I guess my whole point is that slowly but surely I am able to live my life pretty normally without drinking episodes. Its almost as if each new day is better than the one before it. So, for anyone new, there is no question those early days are extremely difficult. But if you are able to weather the storm and expand your horizons a little, there is a good possibility you will be able to build upon each day and before you know it, you feel free, and you're not obsessing. Yet I will say this, my rule still stands, if I fall, I will go to rehab. I don't want any part of the alcoholic lifestyle I used to lead. Have a good day, maybe even a great day.