Hang in there. I still get thoughts like that but I'm fully aware it's the a**hole AV trying to stir things up! Just put out all the rose tinted glasses & remember WHY ur here. None of us r here because we had 1 or 2 times where we acted like an idiot, we're here because booze causes us problems.
I know what u mean about the seasons changing, today was 1 of the 1st days I haven't worn a coat.......last yrs I would have made an excuse & bought 2 bottles of wine (because the sun's out) & got trashed at home. However....I would have also woken the next day, absolutely hanging & wondering how I got to bed! IT'S NOT WORTH IT!!