Originally Posted by
wpainterw 
That's something that happens to me. Freud has not been entirely discredited since it is quite obvious that dreams reflect anxieties, some or perhaps most of them unconscious. Despite my sobriety, I have my share of them, guilt for the drinking years, worry about my wife's possible cancer situation, worry about my sons and grandchildren, even worry about my ten year old dog and what might happen if I die before he does. Whether my wife would be able to take care of him properly or whether he should spend the rest of his life back with his wonderful breeder, happy with other little dogs like he is. He is the sunlight of my life. It's very simple. So often I think that it may be better not to dream. It would be better not to be at all. If it were all as it was before I was born. Not that one should be sorry for the gift of life. Only if it is possible to leave behind something which has changed for the better. That is enough. To leave a footprint behind, like the ones scrawled on walls in WW2: "Kilroy was here....."
W.
Hi Bill, I think I understand where you might be coming from. I too want to leave the earth having made some small contribution and difference. I only have my wife, but I stress what would happen to her if I were not around. But in the end, it is acceptance (probably not unlike alcoholism) that helps me. Acceptance that we are mortal, and the reality is when we are gone, life will continue as it has before us, and after us.