[QUOTE
]I feel sad that I will never have that excitement in my life again
I am wondering if that statement isn't just a little bit negative? Are you not projecting and predicting the future here?
I understand how it feels to be grossed out by someone who's grooming habits and dietary choices have caused their body to be out of shape. Is it possible for you to invite your H to the gym with you? Or maybe you could gently say something about being concerned for his health as being over weight is not healthy.
Or are you just looking for a reason to have an affair?