Interestingly enough, I was discussing this with my therapist today. In the past, when I would get sober, I would have excruciating anxiety over my insomnia. This time around, almost two weeks in, my sleep is sporadic and unpredictable. My therapist said "You seem to be at ease with not sleeping." To my astonishment, I said the phrase "When I'm ready to sleep, I'll sleep." Being comfortable and relaxed and stable is a new experience for me. I often find this new state disorienting, but in moments when I relax into it, I find brief interludes of the peace that I have only seen in others. And, when I'm ready to sleep, I'll sleep.