Originally Posted by
GoingNowhere 
Yes, I think job security would be at risk. Maybe not right when I got back due to laws and such, but soon thereafter. My field is fairly expansive but I'm not sure, took me 9 months to get this one. I just need to think about it
Understandable. The reality is, if you don't quit drinking, your job will be in danger. Alcoholism is a progressive disease and eventually you may lose your job because of it.
The most important part is that you never drink again.
Read that again.
If you started doing that, never drinking, you would be done.
But the title of your post is: "I can't do this again." That indicates a struggle. A struggle where there is none. Except in your mind.
Quit. Period.