I can't do this again
I don't think I have another withdrawal in me.
After this one that is.
I read something today, not sure what post, but it was along the lines of being harder to keep drinking than stop. I wasn't enjoying any of it the last few days, pure maintenance to keep this awful agony away.
Riding it out now, going into day 2, yet again. It really is painfully clear to me that withdrawal does get worse each time. I probably should have been in the hospital that first night, but I'm riding it out at home.