Originally Posted by
soberwolf 
Mera if you have any alcohol please get rid of it
I don't, but you know what, I sure as hell wish I did. I want to drink myself into oblivion right now. I could. I could go to the bar and get a few glasses or better yet, buy a bottle to bring home and drink alone without judgement but I am too goddamn lazy. How's that for you? A disgusting drunk AND a lazy bastard! I'm too lazy and tired to drive to the bar. Pathetic. My doctor called just now. I ****** up royally, he has no appointments available until Friday. I'll go then. Then I'll ask to go to rehab. I've had enough. I can't take this anymore.