Originally Posted by
Meraviglioso 
This is a HUGE step forward for me, to even consider this. I will do it, but it is scary. I am so afraid.
Mera it will be ok. Sounds like you have lots of people that love you and will help you. Reach out and ask one of these people to see you safely to rehab.
Maybe try to focus on the event as being a positive. Start to pack, make a list of everything you would like out of rehab. Just get busy getting prepared. Try to slow up your drinking. If I can do this, you can. I am about the sickest boozer I've ever seen. I can't even share the horrors of my last relapse a month ago. That bad? Yes. Two hospital visits, two detoxes, unbelievable self harm. I'm lucky to be alive. Sorry this isn't about me. My point is slow down the drink as much as you can. Eat. Drink water. Ask for help.