It's official. I'm stubborn.
I knew I can't handle caffeine anymore. But I decided this early in recovery to test if I'd recovered enough to drink it again. So I did. A lot.
Today I drank at least 10 cups. And to say that it triggered anxiety is putting it mildly... I was terrified for hours and hours on end. Truly terrified.
It's not even completely gone at this point but almost.
I am going to avoid caffeine for a long time. And when I try it again, I'm starting with one cup dammit...
Anyway, off to bed. 28 days tomorrow!