Originally Posted by
Mrskw 
Anxiety has been rising all day as thoughts about things I need to change about my life pop into my head, and how I will adjust to those changes without missing certain aspects of my lifestyle so far. I keep thinking of parties, birthdays, Christmas. There's a wretched little voice in my head saying "You cant do that". I actually have no idea how to do those things without drink. But then I've not known how to get through a day without it for too long. I will today though, I'll get through today.
In my experience holidays, Christmas etc. are so much BETTER when sober. Now parties, that depends. After I dried out I realized a lot of parties are just excuses for people to drink and get drunk. I don't drink or like drunks so I just stay away from parties like that. Nothing for me there.