Anxiety has been rising all day as thoughts about things I need to change about my life pop into my head, and how I will adjust to those changes without missing certain aspects of my lifestyle so far. I keep thinking of parties, birthdays, Christmas. There's a wretched little voice in my head saying "You cant do that". I actually have no idea how to do those things without drink. But then I've not known how to get through a day without it for too long.
I will today though, I'll get through today.