I was reading your post and I was thinking how I wished I had read it years ago. It took me a long time to "get it" so for those of you that don't quite grasp this stuff yet, don't be too hard on yourself. And I'll tell ya a secret - even those that do "get it" and work their program on a daily basis, well, we still fail every now and then. It's human - not a catastrophe.
But thank you for posting this post. I was reading through it and was thinking - "Yep, I remember doing that way too often"....."Um, yep, I did that too".......and so on. I can only hope that I've learned enough that I will stay focused on my recovery and not the A's. Hard - but it makes life a little easier to bear in the long run.
Thanks again for a great post.