I'm really trying, the hardest part is when I'm home alone after I drop off my kid at school who goes in the afternoon. I don't know what to do with myself. I need to keep busy. Than again when hubby comes home and wants to drink. I used to be in amazing shape and do all sorts of things now it's the complete opposite. Im self employed and that just doesn't even work anymore I don't have any income coming in. Something needs to change its ruining my life health and my kids need better