Loneliness in my experience is caused by my drinking not solved by it. I made alcohol a priority over everything in my life, including myself and that pushed everyone out of it. It really is just that simple. I cease to be "me" while drinking and become something far worse.. my faults amplified.. my depression increased. I don't want that person around anymore. I hope you find the strength not to drink that wine knb... sounds like a call to a sponsor would be in order... pouring a glass isn't really giving yourself a chance...