I never got AA the 1st time. Sometimes it takes people numerous attempts to hear the message. There's a Man that comes to my group on occasion, And he's been trying since the mid 90's to stay sober. He keeps trying.
If you decide to go back, Try talking to someone. I found I got extra help if I arrived earlier, as group members usually are early to help set up. You usually find yourself sharing and swapping advice without noticing.
All the best, and don't give up.
