Hi Grendhar, pleased you posted.
Don't feel stupid! When we become sober I think we have euphoria, being sober, no hangovers, it's a great feeling and we want to pass it on. It's good to share too, sometimes one sentence can help change a persons mindset to all of a sudden, click.
We have to prepare for that little dangerous AV, though.
Reading, practicing and preparing ourselves, gives us ammunition against this AV, because it does come back but our reaction to it is what matters.