Hey all, I think you're all sleeping. Well, Sao will be up soon.
I went to the two meetings and they were awesome. I got a couple phone numbers and ppl were very cool and supportive.
Sometimes I get worried about going to meetings bc I used to drink after them. But tonight the message was needed and received, and I am so glad I went.
I think I should step back from Sober Chef bc he makes me think alcoholically, probably through no fault of his own. It's a dangerous game. And I'm going to tell him the truth about that. If he cuddles me into submission, I can always reevaluate. I don't need to make any sweeping statements. He's not a bad guy. I just need to be very careful bc I am in danger of drinking and I need to never pretend that's not happening. I'm not 100% well and I can't put a boyfriend on that as if it were a bandaid.
That's all I got for now. xoxo