Why use, when you have the suboxone to help you get through?? You don't need to, and you didn't..
when i get the feeling i want to use ill lie to anyone, myself, my family my friends, anyone...most of the time i dont stop wanting to use until i use, and nothing specific causes it, people keep telling me to fight and not give up...unfortunately i dont think of it as fighting, once the wheels start turning they dont stop....until recently anyways, these past 3 days are then only times ive ever been able to stop my craving and bite the bullet, sometimes it just hits harder than other times.. the only difference between now and then is i actually want to get clean...i couldnt cope with letting myself down now..and i especially wouldnt feel good coming on here saying ive failed, or even worse lying...im not going to stop fighting. i have a community to back me up and break my falls, and newly aquired friends to help me through.