I am thinking of you and feel your pain! I have been pounding out the applications since October and nothing yet. Even harder is trying to balance a non-existant schedule with a toddler too. It's frustrating and disheartening at times.
I keep trying to focus on the positives, I dwelt on all the negatives for the past 3 years I am learning with a clear head that dwelling on the negative brings more negative.
Don't give up, keep on trying. We'll figure this all out!
Sending you good thoughts!