Hi, phoebe. Afternoon here, now, too.
Staying sober for yourself is the most important reason to get sober. I hadn't lost anything tangible such as a job, relationship, or anything similar, either. But I had lost myself, my soul, my essence and I desperately wanted them back. No doubt, I was very broken.
Depression can certainly complicate recovery efforts and cloud our eyes from the goodness that lies ahead in sobriety. Sometimes we just need to take a leap of faith and trust what others have said about sobriety and the benefits they have experienced.
We walk with and beside you, dear phoebe.