Hi Layali
My AV never quit with rationalisation reasons and excuses to quit tomorrow rather than today...end result was I never did until I nearly pushed things too far and died.
The best way to cut the AV out of the decision is simply to quit. Right now.
find the support you need to stick to that decision and use it. Make the lifestyle changes you need to make.
I know..when you think about it it's scary.
But, as someone who's been there, that's not really a good enough reason to continue drinking.
There's no reason why you can;t quit today and stay that way
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