Hey,
Honestly, I don't have a plan. What usually works for me is completely getting off the sauce then compensating through exercise. Borderline unhealthy/obsessive amounts. I was told that was unhealthy by a friend, but in my mind thought that it was a good trade.
I'm usually fully on or fully off. More so lately. I am not ready for any meetings, for a number of reasons. However I do find it hard to explain my struggle to my parents, or relating to other people.
I'm mostly afraid of what that would mean for my job. I feel I might be able to continue in my industry, but in a different role. I actually find that my overconsumption happens during "off time", not related to work. Which brings me around to investigate personal problems/loneliness/boredom. I have to deal with those.
I'll continue the conversation on here, but will not update on my sober status. The whole not drinking/drinking cycle, when I falter, makes me feel kinda phony. All the motivation in the world, saying "I won't do that again", then doing it again. It's all silly. Also, I will adhere to forum guidelines.
All the best.
edit:
When making life decisions, my father suggests making two columns on a sheet of paper: Pro's/Con's of whatever you're looking at.
I've thought through this before and for booze, it's pretty lopsided. Laughably so. But, here I am.