KIR I feel it is something we all go through ( or hit like a brick wall at 100 mph) that feeling of ' nope, I'm never gonna not drink ever again' ( sorry about the double negs there!) but yeah I hear you. Fact is, this like every other temptation AV throws at you passes as you learn to accept that alcohol to us, is poison - pure and simple.
The thing here though is that you are forgetting a hugely important thing... Choice. You are choosing not to drink. Not being forced to stop, you chose not to drink because it you know that to continue would be to destroy what you have. And to start drinking now would destroy what you have achieved in your sobriety.
You don't need to think about tomorrow or next month or next year, let them take care of themselves. All you need to do is make sense of today. X