Living.....it is often said that the best way to tell how an alcoholic is doing is to tell them "NO"......
My question to you is....Why do you think that you should be further than this by now.....what time frame are you going by?
From my life experience and dealing with tons and tons of people who were grieving---either from the loss of h eartbreak or death....(including my own)...
grieving takes time...and time takes time...
You will grieve until you have completed the process...whatever time that takes....
go ahead and cry...crying is good....
dandylion