so no alcohol in the house isn't an option.
I think it could be, if you explained things to your husband.
My house is a dry zone - I figured if I can't be safe there I can't be safe anywhere.
My friends and family are ok with that - they drink elsewhere.
All those thoughts I had about it 'not being fair' to my friends/family cos 'it was my problem' kept booze right there within easy reach for me for years.
You've had a lot of trouble trying to get back to be sober Mama. Maybe it's time to put you first a little?
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