Insanity of taking the first drink or drug?
How often does the thought come up to drink or use for everyone? I was curious as to those of you who feel you work a good program and have acquired some longer term sobriety. How often do you experience the the short thought of it and then recoil? It happened to me earlier while talking with a friend about nursing and intravenous injections. While talking it reminded me of times where I have been in the hospital and received intravenous injections and loved the feeling. This thought scared me a little because I just went to a meeting hours before and was feeling very good about my sobriety and I still do.
Usually I don't have many thoughts of drinking or using, however, I am looking for some other opinions. It shows me the true insanity of the disease becauee I don't want to drink! I know I won't find happiness in the drugs or alcohol. What do you all think? I think I can use this to grow stronger from and already do. This is life and death and I want to live !!!