Aeryn -- I know exactly how you feel and was there myself a few years ago. I pretty much gave up the "having someone special in my life" and just went on dates to have some fun and get out of my house. Until "Mr. Right" came along and just fit perfectly for who I am at this point in my life. If fact, it was weird for him to be dating someone who "didn't NEED him"... hahaha... but it was refreshing to him and he liked how independent I am. So we were not just lovers, we became best friends, too. And we WANTED to be around each other all the time. We each had a house and I wasn't about to "shack up", though. So we got married, LOL.