I have been rambling about paws and I think I have it again,I remember the first experience before leading into paws I had this nervous feeling in my stomach,I am a 200 pound 5'6 female(thou should not judge) I have always felt gluttony during my drinking days,I went from an 90 pound underweight female and once Istarted ddrinking weight was so easy to put on,anyways even when I stopped drinking I have heard your eating habits go to normal but mine didn't,I ate food while drinking(a lot) and sober im eating nothing but junk,anyways again(whole reason im writting) first of all my day started off fine,my boyfriend made me breakfast,then we went out to eat and I just wasn't feeling like myself,Iwas happy one minute and then iI got sad out the blue,he even suprised me with an engagement ring,I smiled and tried to make it seem like I was happy but I felt awful,we then went to the mall for outfits,I looked in the mirror and felt ugly just lousy,I felt like I did all over again,like before I got paws,distance,sad,stomach very shaky,and loss of appetite,I heard paws come by the 3rd month of sobriety im in the middle of my second month,I don't know if it's possible for it to come this soon,I dont know if it's just nerves or what.
